Friday, June 18, 2010

Blah Blah Blah

I haven't been feeling well since yesterday morning. Nothing horrible, just really tired and a headache and tummyache. It has left me with a complete lack of drive to get anything done which makes me feel sort of sad. Plus, all of this lazing around gives me a lot of time to think, which isn't always a good thing. Aaaand, for some reason I lost my whole bottle of Celexa and can't get a refill until the end of June. It all adds up to melancholy Katie.

I have been trying to implement so many positive changes in my life, but sometimes I feel like I am juggling all these balls and just waiting to drop them. I feel like I am not as great of a mom as I could be, nor am I the best wife or housekeeper or cook or really anything at all at the moment. It would be ok if I didn't know that I was capable of more, but I am. I need to get it together and get into a routine and stop being a bum.

Thankfully, a new day starts tomorrow and I have the ability to make choices and fix the things that are bothering me :)

Sorry for rambling.

On a positive note, Josh surprised me with the new Sarah McLachlan cd this week. It was such a thoughtful surprise and I am enjoying listening to the new music. It's not my favorite Sarah, but I don't think anything can live up to my love for her first few cd's.

Happy Saturday :)


  1. I know how you feel...Sometimes trying to impliment a bunch of positive changes is least it is for me.....I am trying to find my own identity right now..I feel like I am defined by being a mom, wife, landscaper, housekeeper, cook, volunteer....everything but Amy....I need to find balance, a schedule and some me time...I think one of the most important thing is to make sure you and your family are happy and healthy..especially you....If you are happy with yourself, everything else will fall into place....Your house (a little dirt never hurt).....everything else...well you do it when you have time...Don't try to do it all....Just enjoy the little everyday things.....You are a great person.....Try not to stress yourself out........Amy

  2. Not the best mom? You're joking right? You do so many amazingly fun things with that lucky little boy every day :) Logan was the only child for 4 years and I couldn't have accomplished a fraction of what you do. Structure and schedules aren't always the best option for kids... don't sweat it!