You seem to have reached a little fork in the road in your journey towards self discovery. I think perhaps you have been making so many changes and now you have lost yourself a little bit. You need to take a little bit of time a really focus on who you want to be and what you want out of life. Do you want to grow spiritually? Maybe you need to do a little reading on some of the Pagan religions, as that seems to be a good fit belief-wise. Do you want to grow a crafting business? Maybe you should try getting out of your comfort zone and learn how to self-promote a little better?How about this blog? This blog was supposed to be for you, as a way to learn about yourself and document the ups and downs of life. Making connections with other people has been a wonderful, unexpected result of that, but for some reason I see you pulling away. It is almost as though you are sabotaging a chance to be a friend, which is exactly the kind of pattern you need to move away from. Stop criticizing yourself, stop overthinking and sitting still. You need to continue down that road you started on, even if it is confusing and difficult and even if you have to pave it yourself every bit of the way.